please kindly remove your laws from my girlie parts

hello there

it’s nice to meet you

you can call me “v”

i’m 30 and i am trapped

i am trapped in 1997

walls no windows

projectors playing

i relive the day

the day i turn 13

life changed immediately

i can feel the wind

a hot june texas wind

i can hear the people

the people outside of me

the people having no idea

i know the smell of the room

and the sound of scraping

i wasn’t stupid, i heard it before

“having sex blah blah blah

don’t have sex”

never giving me a way out

no one showed me how

how to be a person

how to validate myself

i am full of regret

i am a monster

i am a murderer

that is what they say

i couldn’t ask for the pill

the shame of sex

it’s powerful and paralyzing

but as i pace my prison

i wonder why

no discussion and no tools

what the fuck was i gonna do

please don’t regret 

love you

birth would have destroyed us

both of us

-the fetus

hi

i’m “m”

i was wild

and crazy

and in love

but the family name

“our” reputation on the line

when my pants were too small

when hiding it wasn’t possible

i went on vacation

not that vacation on the beach

or to vegas

i went to the darkness

i went to live with the nuns

i would feel it move

it would kick my ribs

then that day came

legs spread apart

my body acting alone

pushing even when exhausted

i heard him cry once

then i heard the door slam

he was gone, just gone

according to the church

there was no option

birth control=murder=damnation

i still wonder who he is

i am 43

it’s been a good life

i wasn’t hit

i wasn’t yelled at

i don’t know hunger

thank you for giving me a chance at life

-the baby boy

i need to fix

i am feeling sick

…………………….

my name is “r”

in my life you do

what you have to

that’s it plain truth

there is no tomorrow

there is only

three hours to get the money

if i don’t….

so i worked

i fucked and sucked

but i got enough money

they pay more

with their dicks exposed

i have a room at the motel

he likes it dirty

whatever to cover the room

last week i had 120 tricks

i ate once or twice

when you fuck someone

already knocked up

that means no child support

some are just into that

i aim to please

i am gonna be honest

i wanted that baby

the police took the others

i had a plan all set up

there was this old lady

she lived two rooms over

sometimes we worked together

she used to be a nurse

it was a sweet lick

all the dope you want right there

she told me how it happened

i can’t remember, something

she got caught….

hey i think that’s it

she was taking dope

she worked in a nursing home

most of them couldn’t talk

hold on a minute,,,,

so the old lady knew what to do

no doctors, no hospitals, no cops

the water broke in the motel office

i was giving the asshole head

then i could feel the water dripping

as soon as his cock was done

he said “you need to clean that up”

“yeah well fuck you”

so it was me and the old lady

we fixed up

poppy, my little girl

it all worked out

it was good for a few hours

i guess it was a few hours

who knows….

then poppy shit everywhere

she kept throwing up

her cry was more of a moan

growling and hushed

she was shaking real bad

her heart was racing

but the old lady said

that is just how babies are

so i laid her down next to me

and we fell asleep

when i woke up

her lips were blue

she was stiff

like a rock with skin

the guy at the front desk

he took her to the hospital

he told them some bullshit lie

they told him poppy was dead

that she died from withdraw

it hurt forever

the forever i remember

it doesn’t hurt now

it doesn’t anything now

i am better

i am glad i got out when i did

but i wish i had you with me

you would sing and it was beautiful

-poppy

law protecting the fetus

demanding incubation

taking control

of cunts and uteri

those brave enough to terminate

never getting help

those too young

those too alone

those who simply

can’t

won’t

don’t

it doesn’t matter why

dear world,

thank you for your concern

we are a clump of cells

we look human 

but we are chemical reactions

we are the division of cells

we don’t have brains

until we have floated in our water bubble

for 24 weeks

we have gathered together and unanimously 

please let us be until we are wanted

-the babes of humanity

you can’t see

blindfolded

babies in dumpsters

children sleeping in ditches

beaten, shaken, degraded

neglected and ignored

we teach abstinence

we lie with false data

we shame

we blame

instead of regulation

it is time for education

educating the toddler

who asks “why” all the time

educating of the children

without fear or shame

educating the teens

when the hormones

kick in good and fast

when they get tingly

between their legs

the denial is deadly

our future needs access

to birth control

to proper use

to their bodies

when 16 and pregnant

has more views than the news

society has fucked up

who can have unwanted pregnancy:

preteens

bankers

whores

teenagers

ad executives

bartenders

artists

college students

the poor

the rich

the rape victim

the girl from taco bell

drug reps

doctors

nurses

lawyers

judges

cops

the uneducated

hipsters

nerds

cheerleaders

dancers

PEOPLE

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