please kindly remove your laws from my girlie parts
hello there
it’s nice to meet you
you can call me “v”
i’m 30 and i am trapped
i am trapped in 1997
walls no windows
projectors playing
i relive the day
the day i turn 13
life changed immediately
i can feel the wind
a hot june texas wind
i can hear the people
the people outside of me
the people having no idea
i know the smell of the room
and the sound of scraping
i wasn’t stupid, i heard it before
“having sex blah blah blah
don’t have sex”
never giving me a way out
no one showed me how
how to be a person
how to validate myself
i am full of regret
i am a monster
i am a murderer
that is what they say
i couldn’t ask for the pill
the shame of sex
it’s powerful and paralyzing
but as i pace my prison
i wonder why
no discussion and no tools
what the fuck was i gonna do
please don’t regret
love you
birth would have destroyed us
both of us
-the fetus
hi
i’m “m”
i was wild
and crazy
and in love
but the family name
“our” reputation on the line
when my pants were too small
when hiding it wasn’t possible
i went on vacation
not that vacation on the beach
or to vegas
i went to the darkness
i went to live with the nuns
i would feel it move
it would kick my ribs
then that day came
legs spread apart
my body acting alone
pushing even when exhausted
i heard him cry once
then i heard the door slam
he was gone, just gone
according to the church
there was no option
birth control=murder=damnation
i still wonder who he is
i am 43
it’s been a good life
i wasn’t hit
i wasn’t yelled at
i don’t know hunger
thank you for giving me a chance at life
-the baby boy
i need to fix
i am feeling sick
…………………….
my name is “r”
in my life you do
what you have to
that’s it plain truth
there is no tomorrow
there is only
three hours to get the money
if i don’t….
so i worked
i fucked and sucked
but i got enough money
they pay more
with their dicks exposed
i have a room at the motel
he likes it dirty
whatever to cover the room
last week i had 120 tricks
i ate once or twice
when you fuck someone
already knocked up
that means no child support
some are just into that
i aim to please
i am gonna be honest
i wanted that baby
the police took the others
i had a plan all set up
there was this old lady
she lived two rooms over
sometimes we worked together
she used to be a nurse
it was a sweet lick
all the dope you want right there
she told me how it happened
i can’t remember, something
she got caught….
hey i think that’s it
she was taking dope
she worked in a nursing home
most of them couldn’t talk
hold on a minute,,,,
so the old lady knew what to do
no doctors, no hospitals, no cops
the water broke in the motel office
i was giving the asshole head
then i could feel the water dripping
as soon as his cock was done
he said “you need to clean that up”
“yeah well fuck you”
so it was me and the old lady
we fixed up
poppy, my little girl
it all worked out
it was good for a few hours
i guess it was a few hours
who knows….
then poppy shit everywhere
she kept throwing up
her cry was more of a moan
growling and hushed
she was shaking real bad
her heart was racing
but the old lady said
that is just how babies are
so i laid her down next to me
and we fell asleep
when i woke up
her lips were blue
she was stiff
like a rock with skin
the guy at the front desk
he took her to the hospital
he told them some bullshit lie
they told him poppy was dead
that she died from withdraw
it hurt forever
the forever i remember
it doesn’t hurt now
it doesn’t anything now
i am better
i am glad i got out when i did
but i wish i had you with me
you would sing and it was beautiful
-poppy
law protecting the fetus
demanding incubation
taking control
of cunts and uteri
those brave enough to terminate
never getting help
those too young
those too alone
those who simply
can’t
won’t
don’t
it doesn’t matter why
dear world,
thank you for your concern
we are a clump of cells
we look human
but we are chemical reactions
we are the division of cells
we don’t have brains
until we have floated in our water bubble
for 24 weeks
we have gathered together and unanimously
please let us be until we are wanted
-the babes of humanity
you can’t see
blindfolded
babies in dumpsters
children sleeping in ditches
beaten, shaken, degraded
neglected and ignored
we teach abstinence
we lie with false data
we shame
we blame
instead of regulation
it is time for education
educating the toddler
who asks “why” all the time
educating of the children
without fear or shame
educating the teens
when the hormones
kick in good and fast
when they get tingly
between their legs
the denial is deadly
our future needs access
to birth control
to proper use
to their bodies
when 16 and pregnant
has more views than the news
society has fucked up
who can have unwanted pregnancy:
preteens
bankers
whores
teenagers
ad executives
bartenders
artists
college students
the poor
the rich
the rape victim
the girl from taco bell
drug reps
doctors
nurses
lawyers
judges
cops
the uneducated
hipsters
nerds
cheerleaders
dancers
PEOPLE